She cried for days
Ahh! no she cried
When it seemed like the tears had stopped they flowed back
She dreaded being alone because she knew she would soak her clothes in tears
But when people were around she missed being in her little shell
She was confused
Confused for days
Kept asking herself where it all went wrong
She blamed herself for not being enough for him
“I should have loved him harder” , “I should have dressed more nicely”, “I should have lost some extra weight,maybe that would have made him stay”.
But then again, she remembered all the moment’s they were together,and the words he told her.
He told me I was perfect
He told me I was beautiful
He told me I was flawless
He told me he was lucky to have me
So where did it all go wrong!!!
She was tired
Too tired to cry
Too tired to think
Too tired to ask questions
Too tired to blame herself
Too tired to even move on
She wanted to run away
Run away to a place where feelings don’t exist
Run away from the pain, the tears and all the thoughts that killed her slowly
She needed help💔
She was angry
Angry at him for hurting her
Angry at herself for loving him
Angry at God for allowing their paths to cross
Angry for saying yes to him
Angry for trusting blindly
Angry for loving too much
She still needed answers
To know where it all went wrong
Today she was smiling ☺️
It’s eight months already
She found another video of him
And this time she felt nothing
No fear, no pain, no anger, no bitterness
No love, no hate
Absolutely nothing!
She was healing
She never saw healing as part of her story
She thought she would spend eternity in tears and pain
She thought this heartbreak would be the end of her but it turned out different
You could say it took longer than normal
But she was healing and nothing felt better
After such a long time, she could feel love and light in her little world again.
Heyy everyone! Welcome back to my blog! So I decided to write a part two of my previous write-up “To love- A crime?”. I wrote this as a reminder to anyone reading who might be going through something only you understand that there’s hope for healing. It might take days, weeks, months or even years but you’re going to heal and you’re going to be fine. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Cry if you want to, scream if that works for you. Allow yourself heal with time and one more thing, love yourself more.
Till next time!
Lots of love!
Vee ❤️
If you haven’t read my previous post, here’s the link to read up. It would help you understand this one better 😘
https://veewrites.art.blog/2021/03/22/to-love-a-crime/
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